Missing It All

This week, (Week 8 - in my Semester 1/ 2010 calendar), it's suppose to be my mid-semester break, which gives us time to take a break from all the hectic work the past 7 weeks, and for those like me to catch up with assignments that are due. ;p

I just came back from Kuching last Tuesday, 20th of April. I felt numb in my heart when my mum sent me off at the airport. Then, as the plane started to pick up momentum suring take-off, I felt a lump in my throat. A feeling of loneliness hitted me. Its been quite some time since I felt like this. Considering I refused to go back home during the past holidays over the year 2009.

What hitted me the most was that the thought of my mum being alone in our home again. She kept a neighbourhood cat that always jumped into our lawn, sometime in the middle of 2009. When I was back last Thursday (15th of April), I had forgotten about my sister telling me we got a pet cat. I jumped in shock when I saw it on the rattan chair by the dining table.

As the days passed, I started to get used to the cat being around, even not running away in fright when its around me. I even stroked its fur (mission accomplished!) few time.

During the whole 5 days back at home, I came to realise how lonely my mum is at our own home. With me and my two sisters staying away from home. My two brothers, they are not that much of a chatter bug with my mum. I did my best in talking to her every chances I get. She seems changed. More quiet, and doesnt bug us so much anymore. She doesnt yell when we didnt listen to her calling or asking us to do something... Perhaps she's just thankful for us to still be around.

OK, I'm gonna stop now. I'm starting to cry.

I love you, Ma.

This shot was taken by Ma.

MANJA - it's a HE. ;p